look at the top right hand side of the4 screen underneath the picture at the top.  That’s where the link is to click on to get to the page.  I will probably move the naturist posts over to that page.

Well I’ve been moving for about three weeks now.  Although i have been living at my new place since two weeks ago.  It’s kinda hard to explain but i have been slowly moving things in.  Unfortunately i do not have a internet connection there as of yet, so i have to come to my parents place if i want to use the computer, and that is about a 10 minute plus drive at times. So i don’t think i’ll be here a lot.  Now to other business.

We’ve been speaking about making a nudist website for people of color.  Well I looked around and found out that there are several already set up and they are all dead.  But i came up with a great idea.  For now…this blog can be be our meeting spot.  This is something i can easily maintain with out a lot of fuss or muss.  Spam cam easily be regulated and people who we don’t want can be kicked out.  I’ll see what i can do about setting up a separate page on this blog for nudist gatherings and people of color meeting up.  If that is not practical or doesn’t work, then i already have another idea that i know will work.

Preferably black models.  I need some now.  For some reason i don’t want to use Craiglist or any other advertising.  I wish i could just find them on my own but i can’t seem to. What i need are women from ages 30 to 100, bbw’s or chubby.  They need to be willing to do nude pictures.  Volunteers are highly needed since i can’t pay any money at the moment.    Also if you are not chubby or a BBW then at least be at or over 40.  Since my project involves older and/or bigger women that is what i need.  Professionals may apply but i make no guarentees since i am looking for amatuer models.  I hope to find some who are definitely from the Southeastern United States, preferably North and South Carolina.   More later.

Well according to a number of people being in the nude is equated with sex.  Well that seems silly in a way but it also very true.  Lets be honest, how many people want to have sex with their clothes on?  No one i know of.  But nudity can also be acquainted with bathing, tanning and a host of other things.  For me i am of two minds about the nude form.  It can be a sexual object as well as a object of beauty.  But most of all it’s just an object.

The human body is the human body, weather it be clothed or nude it does not change that fact.  And yet we are much more scared of nudity in a sexual context then we are scared or worried about sexual contexts in our advertising, movies and television.   Advertisers no longer hide the fact that they know that sex sells, in fact they almost revel in the fact.  Has anyone seen the Firestone Tire commercial where a group of dancers are dancing in falling water?  The women are wearing white and it is obvious that they have nothing on underneath.  But the camera and angles are set so you don’t truly see anything.  But why?

Later Hardee’s put out a commercial with a women in a scantly clad bikini laying and provocative rolling all over a car while she moaned and groaned as she was eating a cheeseburger.  For those of us who know what satire is; immediately got the joke.  The joke was simple, “If your product is truly good, then why do you need a half naked woman to sell it?  If your product is that good then it’ll sell weather you use sexual imagery or not.  Now Hardee’s caught some flack over the commercial but it proved it’s point and it spawned several other commercials who made satire of the “sex sells” mindset.  And yet to be quite honest, we still don’t complain enough if we are so upset about sex and nudity.

I guess part of my view on sex and nudity comes from dealing with nude models.  You’d be surprised how many models anger and piss you off with their eccentrics.  After a while no matter how beautiful they are their attitudes or the difficulties in dealing with said model make her as ugly as all get out.  A great looking body can never cover up a ugly personality.

But for all the life of me i cannot still figure out why Black America is so hateful toward its own nakedness.  I have had a terrible time finding amateur models of the Afro-American/Black persuasion.  They seem to be totally frightened of posing nude.  And those that are not are generally not the type i wish to deal with.  But i still don’t get it.  One of my original models, Norma had to put her clothes on within 1 minute of me stopping the shoot.  It didn’t matter if i was going to start right back up in three minutes, she had to put her clothes on again.  I have to admit she infuriated me with this.  It was like she was obsessive with it, and when i asked her why she just claimed that she felt evil, wrong, and ugly when she was nude.   I gave up trying to convince her otherwise.  I’ve come to realize that trying to change a person’s perception of self is extremely hard unless you brainwash them.

As a guy i find it kind of insulting that TV thinks half naked women are o.k. but not men.  In softcore porn if any of the male’s genitalia shows then it gets a X rating right off the bat.  So what’s wrong with a exposed male penis?  Well we’ve been having that conversation in the Clothes Free forums for over a year now.   We have a lot of answers but no real solution.  But most of all we seems to have a lot of feminists who think a erect male penis is a sign of evil.  I think that is the most idiotic and sexist thing i have ever heard in all my life.  But enough about that.

I hope one day i can walk down the street in the nude if i want and no one will be shocked.  I hope that one day i can live in a nudist community without every white person in their 40’s on up looking at me like i am some kind of gargantuagn dicked predator coming to scoop up their wives and daughters.  If you have to worry about that then that means you have no faith in yer wife or your daughter.  Although i will admit i chuckle whenever i think about such a thing.

To being a little stumped and kinda miffed.  It seems that my post, “Calling all black naturists.” seems to be the only post that anyone is commiting on.  *sigh*  Oh well.  As far as a group for us goes I’m willing to find a way to start one.  But i am at a loss as to what we should write as a charter, or description of the group.  I don’t want a den of oversexed perverts but I do want a place where single black nudists can come without feeling as if they are under seige because they are single.  I would also like to have a family enviroment in some ways.  But for some reason i don’t want the same old stuffy, high moral mind that we see with so many other pro-nudism groups.  Suffice to say i’m not toally sure how we should present our selves.  I’ve heard of these groups like Hedonism and such.  I don’t know much so maybe some one could explain it all to me.  But most of all i need some ideas as to how we should present this group and maybe a name.  So far all i’ve come up with is the name, “The Black Naturist”.

Yes yes i haven’t written in a fucking month.  I know…I know.  I’ve been lazy, i’ve been dealing with a lot of shit too.  As of right now i have no car.  The timinging belt broke on the Neon and now i’m stuck.  I almost bought a Tuscon but my parents think it’s too much per month and they are right.  *sigh*  I don’t have much else to say tonight.  I just wanna go to bed and sleep.  I have to turn the Tuscon back in tomorrow.  Unless they can are willing to give it to me for 200 or 250 a month it cannot be done.

and it’s  all over.  Norma called yesterday around 8:30 a.m..  I was in bed so of course i ignored it.  At 9:30 a.m. i finally got out of bed, and checked the voicemail.  Same tired crap.  She claims she’s sorry she wants to be friends, she just wants things back the way they were.  I didn’t continue to listen, I just erased it.  I already knew what she was going to ask for.  At 10 a.m. she calls again.  I had some great speech prepared and i just decided ot be short and sweet.  I told her that the friendship wasn’t working and i wasn’t coming around anymore and that she would have to find her own way.  I told her that i hoped God blessed her and hung up.  And that was it.  I felt kinda guilty but i think I’m over it now.

Well last night I had two dreams about Tasha.  It did not improve my mood.  I really do not want Tasha back in my emotional life at the moment.  In fatc i don’t want anyone.  I really don’t want sex either.  *sigh*  I don’t know what i want anymore.

I’ll do it next post but i’m using this as a reminder for me to post my book ideas on this blog so I don’t ever forget the books i may want to write one day.

I finally ended my friendship with Norma today.  I got a lot of help deciding what i should do thanks to a preacher who lives just a few doors down from me.  I’ve spoken to him before and it was just happenstance that i spoke to him again today.  He told me that i need to walk away from her.  That Norma was becoming toxic, and while my duty from God may be to help others during certain points in their life.  I had done all i could for Norma.  It was time to walk away and give her the boot.  After all, anyone who will take a page out of the Bible and use it to smoke weed, is someone i don’t need to be around.  One thing I’ve come to face with her is that she was the reason for my impotence.  Her behavior and the stress of dealing with her was the cause of it all.  Now i just hope i can move.

Oh who am I kidding I can and will move on.  *sigh*  I may just guilt trip for a few days or maybe a few weeks because of it all.  *sigh*

This corresponds with another post that you’ll see on my blog.  This is a picture of a preacher that I met recently.  Well about four weeks ago.  It was so surreal.  I saw him sitting outside at that little desk reading.  I hadn’t seen such a thing in years.  Someone just sitting and reading a book outdoors and enjoying it.  I used ot do that.  It was a preacher who lived a few doors from me and he was reading the Bible I found out later.  When i saw him at first this is what i thought when i saw him, “Wow!  Now that’s…surreal.  Haven’t seen anything like that in years.”  So i got my camera and took a few pictures here’s two of them:

Yes…yes I know one of the pictures is off on the lighting.  But i still like it.  It adds to the surrealism i felt at that moment.  Well i hope you enjoy or something.  I can’t think of a good ending for this post.  Oh and i need to patch things up with Adrina.  Something tells me that it’s time to do so.