I used to sit back in the house and be nude all day and all night. Now with steady employment i no longer have the time. Even though I don’t work seven days a week or all day, it feels like i lost something very important. Me time. It seems now that every time i get some time to myself there’s something to do that requires me to put on clothes. Yard work, giving my cousin a ride, something. I kinda feel lost at times but I’m pretty sure that I like money so I’ll keep working. I guess there is a part of me that is still getting used to all this change since its been so long since I worked a steady job. But I also think its because I don’t really like the job. And it’s not just the people, or the hours. It because i feel that I’ve really gotten nowhere. I try not to be arrogant but a really big part of me keeps saying, “This job is for plebs. I was doing this kind of shit when I was fifteen. Why am i here again 23 years later?” Even my parents who were so happy that i finally landed the job are pushing me to find something better right now. They even gave me some book for the local community college in hopes i can get some kind of skill. And to be honest i have looked at and noticed a forklift class for about $139 for a one day class. That’s at least 65% of one paycheck from Hardee’s. I don’t know if i want to spend that kind of money, even if my parents are willing to help me pay for it.
But I now am also praying and hoping that i get a call later this week for another job at another restaurant, as a dishwasher. I’d be making $8.00 per hour with a guaranteed 40 hours a week. Once again its another job that i worked early in my adult life and I was so happy to even be considered for the job, but now I find myself once again wondering if the job is beneath me. I really do not want to think like that. I want to work so i can at least say that as a man i have a decent job and can support myself, even if I am a dishwasher. *sigh* So do i work two jobs, one that is crummy and i don’t care too much for, and I beneath my station but I’ll actually enjoy going to work every day. Or do i try to take some class and hope i can get a even better job in the future. I just don’t know. I know if i get two jobs I’ll have more money, less time to be nude, and even less time to deal with my cousins. Which other then the money, seems like a big plus to having two jobs. Well its time for bed. I have to be at work at 7 AM tomorrow. Just thinking about that makes the dishwashing job seem even more appealing.