Starting Over again.

I’ve been thinking about it and maybe I’ll just restart Naturism for People of Color here on WordPress.  I hate to do so but i spent part of today searching for another site to start over on.  So far Weebly has been a bust due the difficulty of posting pictures and just posting in general.  I came to realize yesterday that Weebly is a site used to build websites, not blogs which is why its so difficult to put a picture in a blog post.  The site is set up to make everything quick and easy for site builders, not bloggers.  So I have been looking around and found basically copies of Weebly as far as blog sites go.  There is tumblr, which is okay but not very good with photos in my opinion.  Next is Blogger, via Google.  Blogger is nice but once again posting pictures in a good format is difficult.  I’ll keep searching for right now but as for now the site on Weebly will probably be deleted soon.  Its not worth using if I can’t do what i need to do.

Naturism for People of Color has been suspended.

I just found out today when i was trying to log on to deal with comments and such.  I have no idea why it was suspended, but apparently I am not the only one since another friend of mine, Guy without Boxers, was also suspended.  I’ve sent a report asking why, but it may be a while before any response is given.  So for now I need to be careful, since i have no idea what got me suspended, I’ll have to wait and not post anything with nudity in it.  If the suspension is not lifted I’ll start the blog over somewhere else.

added Note:  If anyone needs to contact me they can do so at shatterhandgame@yahoo.com.  Sorry for the inconvenience that this may have caused

Well I have some good news.

Just got the call from the doctors office a few minutes ago.  Every thing is good.  It’s nothing but some fluid surrounding both testicles.  Nothing to get upset about.  But the nurse could not elaborate as to how long each day I am supposed to be wearing the athletic support gear (jockstrap).  But what i was told is I do not have to take those pills every day, ONLY when i have pain or tenderness in that area!  So the pills are heading to the medicine cabinet tonight, YEAY!  Beyond that i just have to wait and hope i hear from the doctor about this jockstrap thing.  For now I’ll just call it a athletic support gear or ASG.  But thank God nothing was seriously wrong with.  Thanks to everyone for their prayers and support.

Ultrasounds and Jockstraps.

So today i went to the Diagnostics place and got a ultrasound on my testicles.  I was wondering how this was going to be done and all.  Turns out its the same thing as women go through. The ultrasound technician was female and she gave me some instructions.  A rolled up towel underneath my scrotum and one to cover up my penis.  All i had to do was just drop my pants.  So I lay down on some bed without any pants on (i forgot to wear underwear, force of habit), put the towels in the proper positions  and then she put some gel on the ultrasound scanner and spent five minutes or more per testicle.  The technician wouldn’t give me a diagnosis or even tell me what she was seeing.  SHE instead told me that the radiologist would contact my doctor afterwards.  Well that wasn’t very helpful, after she was done I put my pants and left.

Well i decided to get the jockstraps today.  I was expecting this to be easy but it wasn’t.  I went to 7 different stores and the mall.  Took me two hours to find a jockstrap that wasn’t some overpriced male strippers g-string for 15 dollars a pair.  I went to Wal-Mart and found one pair for 5 dollars.  FIVE FUCKING DOLLARS FOR ONE PAIR!  I am not fucking kidding you.  Pissed me off but i bought three of them and i am wearing one now.  Almost feels like I’m wear a fucking g-string.  And the real problem is that underwear companies no longer make jockstraps, its all of these sports companies now like Wilson or Nike.  I actually went online and this is some of the crap i found.

http://www.jockstrapcentral.com/

http://www.freshpair.com/mens/underwear/jockstrap.html

http://www.jockstrapcentral.com/pulse.php

Do the words ‘fuck’ and ‘no’ hold any meaning for you?  They do for me.  No way in hell I am I wearing any of that crap.  The closest thing i could find for what i wanted was this: A real normal jockstrap  and yeah its 24 dollars for one fucking pair.  My god no one actually makes jockstraps any more except intimate men’s apparel shops and sports companies!  The world is officially fucked up!  Well there is one good thing about these Wilson’s athletic supporter I’m wearing, there’s no cloth in the back so i can go take a shit without having to take these things off!  Yeay….

The Cold and the Told #3: The final post.

Well i made a deal with the textile devil.  I decided to wear some PJs or at least a long shirt.  In exchange the evil gas company will keep my bills low. Not much of a choice but i refuse to spend 100 dollars each month on a gas bill.  Considering my current health situation though it seems to be the best idea.  Almost like i was being set up to accept the inevitable much more easily.  In a few weeks i hop i can buy myself a nice long bathrobe.  That will be even better.

Well it’s over, an era of nudism is finished.

For me that is.  For at least 12 years now i have enjoyed at home nudism and going commando.  But that has come to an end.  Eight days ago i was having back pains and then the next day a strange pain in my right testicle.   Suffice to say i was worried and set up a doctors appointment a few days later.

So i went to the doctor today and he said i still had some swelling there and so he recommended 800 mg of ibuprofen to get rid of the swelling and then a ultrasound.  He also said i needed to start wearing a jockstrap.  He didn’t say for how long, but he explained to me why.

Apparently when the testicles descend from the abdomen in the womb they carry some kind of tissue with it that seals off the scrotum from the rest of the body; well he suspects that my seal ain’t working too well and some fluids might be leaking into my scrotum and causing all that pain.  I guess the jockstrap will help with that as well as the pills.

Suffice to say i was kinda in shock, and scared as fuck.  800mg, some kind of testicle condition and now i need a ultrasound.  Yeah I was kinda feeling fucked.  So i went to talk to my cousin after i left the doctor’s office.  I needed to talk to someone and she is a good listener.

So now here i sit in a pair of underwear, tomorrow i go and get  jockstrap or two, or 5 maybe.  Fuck if i know,  I’m still scared.  On Friday i go to get this ultrasound and what if it that finds something far worse?  I don’t know what to do anymore.  I’m just praying that I’m overreacting and nothing is really wrong

I may have one last chance…maybe

I’ve always wanted to wonder around outside in the nude.  I’ve managed to sneak outside a few times but never really enjoyed the moment.  Most of the time i would site on the steps of my back door and smoke a cigarette.  And yeah those steps are uncomfortable to sit on.

So yeah, this year was going to be the year.  I was going to stand outside and get the job done this summer.  At first the usual excuses started, but then something terrible happened.  The tree in my back yard had to be totally cut down due to fears of the old dead thing falling on the house in a storm.  A very large branch had hit the house more then a year ago and luckily cause no damage, but no chances could be taken this year and so it was cut down.

The old tree was the only thing that obstructed the view to my back doorstep.  My back yard neighbor is a 80+ yr old woman who I’ve only met 3 times since I moved here years ago.  And yet i am now paranoid that she’ll see me if i step outside in the nude, even if it’s 2 AM.  And to be honest her back window is more the 30 yards away.  *sigh*  OK maybe one last try.  I don’t even know any more.