Pissed off and shaking my head.

I’m trying to keep my anger in check here, but i need to vent and scream right now!  I have three cousins on my mother’s side of the family, three sisters in fact.  Their names are Nika, the oldest at 33.  Zovia, the second daughter, 27, and Nisha, the youngest at 23. Their mother had each of them out of wedlock, with three different men and then basically dumped them off on her mother.  Now to put this in perspective even further, their mother Teetha and her sister Leetha came to stay at my parents place when they were in their teens and i was still a little kid in hopes of steering them from the path of becoming unwed mothers.  Well it didn’t work, both sisters had kids out of wedlock.

To top it off the eldest daughter of Teetha, Nika had been babysat for months when she was a baby, not only by my mother but also my mother’s mother (my grandmother) for about a year.  Well here we are years later and Nika has three kids out of wedlock by three different men, none of which will or can help.  Zovia has one child out of wedlock with some guy who has been dead since the child was born.  Nisha doesn’t have any kids, yet, but i have helped all three sisters out with either money or rides back and forth to work or shopping for things for their children.

Now over the last few months i have been giving Nisha rides back and forth to work, or over to a female friends house.  Now she knows i will not give her a ride over to any guy’s house because i do not believe in giving rides for booty calls or for you to have sex with or spend time with some lover or beau, especially those three girls because i will not have any role to play in screwing up their lives any further.  But guess what i see on Facebook today?  Nisha making some post about how happy it is to wake up beside some ‘boo’ that you love so deeply.  And just a few hours ago i took her ass over to some income assisted apartment complex because she wanted to hang out with a female friend of her’s.  She has been lying to me from the start!  Lying to my fucking GODDAMN FACE!

Now i can already see how this shit is gonna play out!  Nisha is going to get her stupid, no-education having, ghetto ass pregnant just like her sisters and mother and then expect everyone to help her ass out.  She even has a cousin who is 7 months pregnant right now and can’t even afford to get her own car fixed.  She has numerous examples in friends and family around her to let her know what not to do and yet she is doing the exact same thing her sisters, her mother, her friends, and extended family have done.  And yet…there seems to be no pattern recognition, no epiphany as to how she is risking screwing her life up on a permanent basis.

Well from now on she isn’t getting any rides to any of these other places and i am seriously thinking about just cutting her sorry ass off completely because of this bullshit, which would mean no rides to work either.  *sigh*  I am just so angry and i don’t know what else to say or do.

Whats up and whats been happening.

Well a few things have happened since my last post.  The flash on my Nikon D40 has died and i am not sure what to do about it at the moment.  Either i repair it, or I buy a external flash.  I like the idea of a external flash because i plan to get a multi-directional flash that will help keep the flash out of my subjects eyes and out of mirrors and windows, but still provide adequate light.  Yeah its a great idea and kind of cheap too since i have found a great Vivitar kit for a good affordable price. 

Now onto somewhat darker things.  I have had it with using friends and family as models.  Too much damn drama and being used like a chump.  I won’t go into too many details mainly because i don’t want to.  But suffice to say that each time I’ve used either friends or family as models they only model once and then i can’t get them to model again.  if they promise to model again they keep putting me off, begging for favors, or using the proposed modelling gig to get me help them but constantly reign on keeping their end of the bargain.  So for now, no more family and friends.  I just don’t need to be so pissed off and feel so used.  Life is hard enough as is.

And now about my Tumblr site.  I am trying to decide whether to keep it going or not.  Even though i have new pictures it may be months before I get anything else; plus i have this blog to keep posting pictures at.  I think i have figured out how to run this thing well enough that I can link the posts to my photography without messing it up.  But i haven’t logged into the site in months and i really don’t maintain anything there any more.  If you think i should keep the tumblr up then just say so in the comments beyond that there isn’t much else to say at the moment because I have other things to do.  I will be posting more pics of Cintra though.

Go Topless Day.



First some links: Go Topless Day (wikipedia)  GoTopless.Org The Social and Legal arguments for topless women in public

Second:  My Opinion

This has got to be the stupidest fucking shit i have ever seen in my goddamn fucking life!  Now i spent a hour debating this with myself and what my thoughts and opinion on this matter should be.  Going topless is not a fucking social justice ideal!  If you want to walk around with yer tits hanging out then go to a nudist resort or topless beach!  But this dumb idea of going topless for a day to support gender equality is just fucking stupid!  It has no merits, does not support the equality between males and females and does not help society grow or function any better!

There is a reason women wear bras and 90% has to do with the laws of physics and comfort!  It has nothing to do with patriarchy and women being oppressed!  Now if you are one of those grown women with the bust size of a 10 yr old Asian schoolgirl then by all means don’t wear a bra but keep a fucking shirt on!  Just like no one wants to see a 85 yr old man with liver spots walking around with his shirt off, no one wants to see most women of any age, IN PUBLIC, with their shirts off!

The social justice warriors/advocates (SJWs) who support this garbage apparently do not understand why we have certain social norms.  We have them because it helps society function with efficiency on a day to day basis.  The reason we ask women to cover up is the same reason we ask men to cover up, to keep society flowing smoothly, to keep social conversation and decorum polite and decent, and most of all to keep people from distractions, and encouraging those with less common sense, morals, and sanity from acting out in negative ways!

I guess what really irks me with this Go Topless Day is that it doesn’t actually help the cause of gender equality, societal evolution, helping those in need, or even just making the world a better place.  GTD is a exercise in futility which not only wastes time that could be spent truly helping people, but also shows how selfish and immature the so-called gender equality movement is.  It seems that the gender equality movement or GEM is run by a bunch of 20 yr old party girls who are trying to make up for the fact that they were late bloomers in high school, instead of helping women have better life in this nation and across the world.

In the end i don’t think we’ll have as many women participate as the GEM hope.  Too many people have common sense, and it seems the GEM wants to throw out common sense along with the bathwater and baby we call human civilization.  And to what end?  So you can feel equal to the guy walking down the street with his shirt off?

And finally i should say this.  We as nudist should not get involved in this clusterfuck of a movement.

Are Black Americans Stupid?

I saw this post on Facebook and i decided to link to it here.  It has some great points.

Are Black Americans Stupid?


Here’s a quick preview:

I have been out of America for years, now. I can honestly say that when you leave American society, your mind and emotions began to heal. Your actions and thoughts begin to correct themselves. When you don’t watch the bs on TV, eat fast food, or listen to brain dead music on the radio, slowly, your “negro” programming wears off. Your taste buds change. Even the smell of your skin.

I met a rasta a few years ago at a bar. We sat for a while, had a few drinks, and in the middle of the conversation, he told me that I had the mind of a white man.

What the hell!?

I’m the most militant, pro-black person I know. How could he say that? I was offended. Years later, I understand what he meant. Before I get into that, let’s talk about MOST black people in America.

Niggas love being niggas, So much so, that they strive to be REAL niggas. They take pride in saying,”I am a real nigga”. Really? That was your goal in life? To be a real nigga?

I hope my followers will read this with intelligence and discretion.  I don’t agree with everything the author said but i agree with a lot of it.

The female photographer

The female photographer


Okay i have to admit the reason I’m reblogging this is because i found it funny. Also as a gamer and nudist i found it to be interesting.

Originally posted on the sl naturist:

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I’ve not been contributing much lately. If you’re an SL regular, you’ll know that feeling. Sometimes RL simply swamps you. And ‘swamp’ is an appropriate word!

You might have read Ella’s postings on the storms that have battered the UK in recent weeks. I was ‘victim’ to them, although I thankfully got off much lighter than many others. Our garage, set on the hill to the side of our house, was flooded, and we did lose electricity to our house for several days and some of our ‘white goods’ (our freezer, washing machine and tumble drier) were all lost to the water, alongside much of the remainder of the contents of the garage…lawnmower, etc.

Anyway, life goes on.

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The house is largely back to normal now, and SL time can return :) Hoorah!

The only ‘upside’ to the flooding around us (we’ve not been affected this last, awful week) is…

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The true movement behind Third Wave Feminism?

After i wrote my last post i received a couple of well written comments.  One of the comments indicated that Third Wave Feminism is more a a cobbling of different agendas rather then a true next gen feminism movement.  Most of the agendas are basically from the Transgender community.  And i have to admit the commenter was right.  In a number of feminist blogs, twitter feeds, and tumblrs i have seen an increasing about of verbiage and descriptions from the so called ‘gender fluid’ community.  For those of you who are scratching your heads there is a movement on the internet that has picked up steam into the real world, the people behind that movement literally want to wipe the concrete foundations of gender.  No more he or she, just non-gender nouns and pronouns.  Really ludicrous stuff in my opinion.

So what does this mean.  Basically it means the third wave movement may be getting slowly taken over or already has been taken over by these people.  Whats so funny is that I’ve heard rumblings by a number of feminists who are against the idea of transgenders and gender fluid/queer types pushing into the movement.  Basically they believe the feminist movement is for women not people who decide to remain genderless, attempt to change their genders via surgery, or simply mentally change their genders on a whim.

Still though a part of me sees these agendas as dangerous and harmful to women ultimately.  Just my couple of cents for the moment.